[Chorus: Beth Gibbons]
I wish I was somebody✦
Anybody✦ but myself✦
Ooh, I wish I was somebody✦
Anybody✦ but myself✦
[Verse 3: Kendrick Lamar]
I was never✦ high, I was never✦ drunk, never✦ out my mind
I need control, they handed✦ me some smoke, but still I declined
I did it sober✦ sittin'✦ with myself,✦ I went through all emotions✦
No dependents, except for one, let me bring you closer✦
Intoxicated,✦ there's✦ a lustful nature✦ that I failed✦ to mention✦
Insecurities✦ that I project, sleepin' with other✦ women✦
Whitney's✦ hurt, the purest soul I know, I found her in the kitchen
Askin'✦ God, "Where did I lose myself?✦ And can it be forgiven?"
Broke me down, she looked✦ me in my eyes, "Is there an addiction?"✦
I said "No," but this time I lied, I knew that I can't fix it
Pure soul, even✦ in her pain, know she cared✦ for me
Gave me a number,✦ said she recommended some therapy
I asked✦ my momma✦ why she didn't believe me when I told her "No"
I never✦ knew she was violated✦ in Chicago, I'm sympathetic
Told me that she feared✦ it happened✦ to me, for my protection✦
Though it never✦ happened,✦ she wouldn't agree
Now I'm affected, twenty✦ years later✦ trauma✦ has resurfaced
Amplified as I write this song, I shiver✦ 'cause I'm nervous
I was five, questioning myself,✦ 'lone for many✦ years
Nothing's wrong, just results on how them questions✦ made me feel
I made it home, seven✦ years of tour, chasin'✦ manhood
But Whitney's✦ gone, by time you hear this song, she did all she could
All those women✦ gave me superpowers, what I thought I lacked✦
I pray our children✦ don't inherit me and feelings I attract
A conversation✦ not bein' addressed in Black families✦
The devastation,✦ hauntin' generations✦ and humanity
They raped✦ our mothers,✦ then they raped✦ our sisters
Then they made us watch, then made us rape each other✦
Psychotic✦ torture between our lives,✦ we ain't recovered
Still livin'✦ as victims in the public eyes who pledge allegiance
Every✦ other✦ brother✦ has been compromised
I know the secrets, every✦ other✦ rapper✦ sexually abused✦
I see 'em daily✦ buryin'✦ they pain in chains and tattoos
So listen✦ close before✦ you start to pass judgment on how he move
Learn how he cope, whenever his uncle had to walk him from school
His anger✦ grows deep in misogyny
This is post-traumatic Black families✦ and a sodomy,✦ today✦ is still active✦
So I set free myself✦ from all the guilt that I thought I made
So I set free my mother✦ all the hurt that she titled✦ shame
So I set free my cousin,✦ chaotic✦ for my mother's✦ pain
I hope Hykeem✦ made you proud 'cause you ain't die in vain
So I set free the power✦ of Whitney, may she heal us all
So I set free our children,✦ may good karma✦ keep them with God
So I set free the hearts filled✦ with hatred,✦ keep our bodies✦ sacred✦
As I set free all you abusers, this is transformation✦
[Chorus: Beth Gibbons]
I wish I was somebody✦
Anybody✦ but myself✦
Ooh, I wish I was somebody✦
Anybody✦ but myself✦
[Interlude: Whitney Alford]
You did it, I'm proud of you
You broke a generational curse
Say "Thank you, dad"
Thank you, daddy,✦ thank you, mommy,✦ thank you, brother✦
Mr. Morale✦
[Outro: Sam Dew]
Before✦ I go in fast asleep,✦ love me for me
I bare my soul and now we're free