[Chorus]
Sometimes✦ I feel so alone,✦ I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before✦
So lonely✦ and cold, it's like something✦ takes✦ over✦ me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda✦ feels like déjà vu
I wanna✦ get away✦ from this place, I do
But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie
'Cause I don't and why, I just don't know
[Verse 2]
"Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?"
That's the Devil✦ in my ear, I've been sober✦ a fuckin'✦ year
And that fucker✦ still talks to me, he's all I can fucking hear
"Marshall, come on, we'll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers"
"And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half-buzzed for half of the time"
Who's the mastermind behind✦ that little line?
With that kind of rationale, man, I got half a mind
To have another half a glass of wine sounds asinine, yeah, I know
But I never✦ had no problem with alcohol
Ouch, look out for the wall, aim for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall
I miss the couch and down I go, lookin'✦ like a bouncing ball
Shit must've knocked me out 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all
Wow, what the fuck happened last night? Where am I?
Man, fuck, am I hungover? And, goddamn, I
Got a headache, shit, half a Vicodin?✦ Why can't I?
All systems ready✦ for take off, please, stand by
[Chorus]
Sometimes✦ I feel so alone,✦ I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before✦
So lonely✦ and cold, it's like something✦ takes✦ over✦ me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda✦ feels like déjà vu
I wanna✦ get away✦ from this place, I do
But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie
'Cause I don't and why, I just don't know
[Verse 3]
So I take a Vicodin,✦ splash, it hits my stomach, then (Ah)
Couple of weeks go by, it ain't even✦ like I'm gettin'✦ high
Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah, I'm gettin'✦ by
Wouldn't even✦ be taking✦ this shit if DeShaun didn't die
Oh yeah, there's✦ an excuse;✦ you lose Proof, so you use
There's✦ new rules,✦ it's cool if it's helpin'✦ you to get through
It's twelve-noon, ain't no harm in self-inducin' a snooze
What else is new? Fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes?
Now here I am three months later,✦ full-blown relapse
"Just get high until✦ the kids get home from school, homes,✦ relax"
And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
I need these pills to be able to sleep, so I take three naps
Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see
That's an Ambien✦ each nap, how many✦ Valium?✦ Three?
And that will average out to about✦ one good hour's sleep
Okay,✦ so now ya see the reason✦ how come he
Has taken✦ four years to just put out an album,✦ B
See, me and you, we almost had the same outcome, Heath
'Cause that Christmas, you know the whole pneumonia thing?
It was bologna, was it the methadone,✦ ya think?
Or the hydrocodone✦ you hide inside✦ your pornos?✦
Your VCR tape cases,✦ with your Ambien✦ CR
Great places✦ to hide 'em, ain't it? So you can lie to Hailie
"I'm going beddy-bye, Whitney, baby;✦ good night, Alaina"✦
Go in the room and shut the bedroom✦ door
And wake up in an ambulance, they said they found me on the bathroom✦ floor, damn
[Chorus]
Sometimes✦ I feel so alone,✦ I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before✦
So lonely✦ and cold, it's like something✦ takes✦ over✦ me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda✦ feels like déjà vu
I wanna✦ get away✦ from this place, I do
But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie
'Cause I don't and why, I just don't know